I first realized I wanted to be in fashion when I was in junior high school, but back then I had this unrealistic belieft that I could do anything I wanted. I was settled on nothing less then becoming the next big Fashion Designer, and I would devote hours to watching shows like Project Runway. My mom would constantly tell me how hard it would be and ask me if I was certain this was what I wanted to do, and I would be annoyed because in a young kids mind, parents are just negativity givers... But of course my mom was ultimately right, and she had my best interest in mind. So what now? Were my dreams entirely crushed? I clearly didn't have the talent to become the next big hit in the design field, sure I had good ideas but not nearly enough of them. I couldn't even sketch too well, let alone sew and stitch and put together pieces. I was left lost again, and I needed to find myself.
As I entered high school, all my hopes and dreams of being in the fashion field began to vanish, and I started looking into more "realistic" jobs, which in my point of view were more boring jobs, and I couldn't stand them. Because of my lack of security in my future, I had no motivation, and clearly I did not try in high school as much as I should have. It wasn't until junior year that I realized my future may not be clear, but it was clearly on the line right now, and I had to step it up. I started trying a bit more and taking Advance Placement classes. Despite all this I still had not a slightest idea of what I was going to do. I thought perhaps I'll just go to a California State University and major in psychology, a major that is slightly a gate way to various different other jobs. But there was this problem, it wasn't what I wanted for myself and I knew I would be absolutely miserable.
I had known of FIDM and I even attended FIDM's Three Days of Fashion the summer before Junior year, and so I was on their mailing list. FIDM sent me a invitation to their open house, and just for the heck of it I decided to go. BEST DECISION OF MY LIFE. There at the open house, I found my dream major and the school was perfect for me. That day, I applied, and was sent home with a short two weeks to complete an entrance project that would determine whether I would make it or not. For once in my life I felt like there was purpose to try. I did my best, in fact I went beyond what was required and turned in my best abilities, not just the minimum. After my interview, they automatically accepted me, and I had this relief at heart.
Tons of my friends right now are torn between what they want to do next year, and what they should do next year, because they don't know their place yet. Others haven't recieved any news from their dream colleges, or worse, some of them had been rejected. I, on the other hand, do not have to deal with any of this, because I already have a place for next year. I'm not saying this to show off, what I mean is, really find what you want in life, and don't settle for less then that. People think they have to go to certain colleges or be certain people, and they forget to ask themselves what it is that they want for themselves. If you find your dream place, it really gives you motivation and it'll really help you to achieve your goals.
So this was really ranty, and although it was about FIDM I barely touched on my love for fashion, so perhaps I'll talk about that another time. As for now, the bell is about to ring, and so I must bid you all farewell, until next time!
xoxo,
Shannon
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